Good Intentions

Yes well my plan of completing the SLQ Licence 2 Test Drive learning program didn't fair so well. In fact is was quite dismal. I think I only got up to Week 2. I had planned to do the program at home but the last few months have been quite a rollercoaster of emotions for me.
Firstly, at the beginning of May I suffered from another bout of depression. It is something I have struggled with over the last decade or so and I thought I had in under control. I guess I have to listen to my body and mind a bit more closely. I did get help early which was good and meant I was feeling better quite quickly.

Also, last month my grandmother, my mother's mother, my only remaining grandparent died, just 2 weeks shy of her 90th birthday. It was a bit of a shock as she wasn't specifically ill or anything but she had deteriorated over the last 7 months or so and had given up the will to live. She wasn't eating well and spent most of her time in her nursing home room. She was a wonderful woman who gave the most warm cuddles. She was also very stubborn and so when she set in her mind that she didn't want to live to 90 she achieved it.

But it hasn't all been doom and gloom for me over the last few months. I became an Aunt for the 3rd time when Aaron's sister Zoe had her 3rd son and the end of May. She now has 3 boys under 6. I do not know how she copes. 1 child will be all that I will have I think. It has been nice being an Aunty and getting to know babies and children. Before I met Aaron I had very little to do with babies and young children. I am the youngest child, the youngest grandchild on both sides of my family and even then I didn't grow up near my cousins anyway. All of my friends from school that have had children do not live in Brisbane, and none of my city friends had had children before then. Anyway, needless to say I was very nervous around the boys at first but now I have no trouble. It is still good to give them back at the end of the day though.

Well, I didn't expect all that to flow out when I started this post but that's okay. This blog is meant to be an outlet for my stream of consciousness anyway.
This photo is of me in Aunty mode.